LAWD HELP ME!

I Haven't written in a few days. I said I was gonna do better...UGH...so I gotta do better. But if it helps I have been in Virginia since monday. My flight left at 630am monday morning. 630 am! Dude! I was leaving my house at 4 am to get to the airport. What the Crap?? To make matters worse, I didn't sleep at all the night before *hoping* that I could sleep on the plane. But you know what...

Im SCARED of flying.

I have never admitted it aloud, and technically, Im not saying it, but now the world knows.

We had a 3 hour layover in Atlanta, so I took that opportunity to sleep. It was GREATLY appreciated. I nodded in and out on the plane from ATL to Richmond. I couldnt sleep though...I was too scared. :o/

Anywho, I have been having a great time with my family. My great grandfather (aka Grandaddy) is in the hospital. (yikes!) He has been having some issues for a while, but he has a pretty nasty infection right now. Its clearing up, so no worries. He is 92 years old! 92! and clever as ever. I LOVE playing cards with him. Actually, he is the main person I came up here to see. LAst time I visited, we stayed up extra late playing cards out in the sunroom. Then Ganny (my grandmother) would come and tell us we needed to get on to bed. Now I just go visit him and play in the hospital. I wish I could stay here forever. Help take care of him and be with my grandparents. My grandmother (Ganny) stays prayed up. We prayed together yesterday and...I know she's connected. Thats weird to say, but I know Im blessed because of Her faith. Thats in the bible. I just wanna have faith half as strong as hers so that My grandchildren will be blessed. ;o)

Last night we played the Wii. Ganny beat me twice in bowling. For an old lady, shes got a good arm! lol. Then we all played together (me her my papa and my daddy) and I won!! Yay!she came in second and then papa then daddy.

OMG! I just realized how long this blog is! And I haven't Even started telling you about more personal stuff. Maybe Ill write later.

Or maybe I will just keep going since its on my mind.

Attah-
Let me just be real for a minute. I have known Attah for...going on 3 years now. We talked when we initially met. Nothing serious came of it, but we did develop a friendship. A good one at that. Now we are kind of back at square one. Not that we arent friends or anything like that, but we are talking again. This time, a bit more seriously I think. There is so much potential it scares me. Another thing I haven't said aloud...Now, If you know me, I run from things Im scared of. I couldnt run from a plane ride, it was a necessary evil to get to where I wanted to be. That being said, I dont want to keep running from relationships when they are a necessary evil to get to where I want to be. I like to find the easy way out...talking to my exes and trying to fix things that are broken indefinitely. Its like, There is a reason we broke up...what the hell am I doing? Ya know? Anywho. He is the reason I have put my move on Hold. I have to give him a fair shot ya know...anywho...

WHile Attah has Most of my attention, there are a couple other people trying to get my time and attention. Here is my thing. I have never been the one to talk to more than one person at a time...if I have, things usually went one way or another. Im just sayin, opportunity has to be present from every angle in order for me to find what I'm looking for. So, I wont shut them down completely. I'll be straightforward with everyone. After all, I'm not in a relationship. I do owe anyone that I am involved with honesty, but until I am someone's girlfriend, I'm dating. I'm gonna take my time getting to know people so that when I find what I want, what works, I can enter into it knowing that I took the full opportunity, weighed it against the possibilities and came out with something that will last. After all, it it wont last, what the heck r ya dewin it for? :o)

I think thats all for now. Im gonna post some pics on Facebook and Ill put the link here so you can see 'em.

Peace, Love, And Blessings Ya'll.