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"As I sit here contemplating, on the right things to decide...
WIll I take the wrong Direction all my life?
Where will I go? What lies ahead of me??"
-Xscape, 'Who Can I Run To?'

I really like that song. RIght now its pretty much accurate as to how I feel in my life. But I feel like Im making positive moves. A couple more weeks and I will be in Virginia. ^_^ I Love that place. I will get to Rest and Relax and Have breakfast every morning. I can learn to ride that durn motorbike like I wanna AND I can Read til my heart is content! But mostly, Ill get to spend time with my family. Mostly My grandad and poppa. We will play pinoccle until ganny comes and tells us its time for beddybye. I gotta get on a sleep schedule before then though. Or they will wonder whats wrong with me. :0)

Since it came up, Lets talk about my sleep schedule:
IT DOES NOT EXIST.
In case you haven't noticed, I usually post on here after midnight. I dont know what sleep is until at least 5 am and I dont see daylight until 12ish. Sometimes Im up by 1030, but that is a good day. I just know this, I need a schedule back. As much as I hate monotany, I need structure in my life. I need to wake up daily at ___ to go work out at ____ shower and be to work by ____. Then after work I need to be home by ____ to change and get ready for practice by ____. Then I go home, Shower, devotional, blog, and Sleep by ____. Now that this is written out, I gotta find a way to make it work. I dont want a job that requires me to be at work til midnight every night. I would Much rather be at work by 7 if it means I will be off by 3 and free to enjoy the rest of my afternoon. grr. I miss those days. Hopefully, they will return to me!

...as soon as I move to Houston. Yep, I said it. I'm more than ready to make this move and I think that there are PLENTY of people already there that will be willing to help me. I just gotta find a job. I have started looking and a couple friends of mine have an ear open too. but in all honesty, im looking in Dallas too. If I find a job here first that creates a better opportunity, Im gonna take it! Im also considering looking in Virginia when I go out there. What if I never came back? Thats an Idea...Hmm, Ill have to keep that in mind. I can enroll in school out there. New scenery a complete change from what I was doing. I can take my car out there...eventually. OMG. Im kinda excited about this mini plan. Im gonna talk to my uncle...maybe he can get me a job at the federal reserve. Or my grandmother can get me a job with the IRS. i can stay with one of them until I get to know the city. Then I can move...out on my own...on the east coast! YAY!

I think I just made the single most important decision in 2010. My Resolution was to try. and this is something Im going for. 100% ohhhhhhhhh...after I talk to my Grandmother and Uncle and other family out there. We will see. I can't wait.

I think I had some bad stuff I wanted to write about...but i cant...oh yea,

Desmond.

But I cant focus on negative anything right now.
Im too amped up about this virginia trip.
But I gotta keep this a secret...

HAHAHAHAHA. Who Am I kidding. I just told the world my plans to leave.

You think my parentals wont see this?
I hope not. Not until Im ready to tell them.

EEK!

Peace Love and Blessings ya'll.