What to do What to do...so many options.
You know what, i think instead of writing this one out...
Im just gonna do a picture blog tomorrow.
I know its gonna be an interesting night.
Besos!
Peace Love and Blessings Ya'll
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Frustrated
I cant explain just how much it bothers me when my friends can't talk to me. I know I'm a good listener, I have been doing this shit for years. So you don't want advice, I won't give it to you. I won't steer you wrong, or lead you to the clearing you seek. I will just listen. Be an ear for you to vent to. I wont tell your secrets. I won't use it against you. I'll just be here for you. When you need me, it's my role--as your friend. But when you deny me the ability to do that...I feel helpless. And that, to me, is the worst feeling in the world.
Thanks.
I'll have more tomorrow. After all, Tonight was a pretty good night. :)
I see new, True friendships blooming and it makes me ridiculously happy.
Peace Love and Blessings ya'll.
Thanks.
I'll have more tomorrow. After all, Tonight was a pretty good night. :)
I see new, True friendships blooming and it makes me ridiculously happy.
Peace Love and Blessings ya'll.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Mac and Cheese, Please
Random: Mac and cheese is my favorite. After January 4, I have to give it up. Not entirely, but I have to limit it. Anyway, its what I'm eating for lunch today. Yummy.
So in order for this blog to work I have to talk about stuff. I dont really want to talk about my non-exsistant love life, but there is lots of stuff to go on about. I could talk about my experience with college and the 'path' i've chosen. I could talk about family issues...rather, issues i have with my family. Is that too private? I dont know. I just came to clear my mind...and right now this is what's on it.
Desmond.
I know I shouldn't be thinking of him. I keep beating myself up about how much I like him because I really really just want to be a friend to him. I mean I care about this dude and his well being, but I have genuine feelings for him too. I find myself getting jealous when he talks about other females, but I have to check myself really quick because thats not fair. We are just friends. Have I talked to him about this...Well, yea -kinda. I feel like he already knows, so why say anything ya know? I dont want our relationship to change. I like it just the way it is. I dont want things to be any more awkward than they can be at times and I definitely dont want him to go running the other direction. It gets easier everytime we hang out. Its definitely gonna suck when he goes back to Atlanta. No worries though. I guess.
Aside from him, another problem is boggling my brain: New years Eve.
I want to party like there's no tomorrow. But I have to be at work at 1045 Friday morning. I'll only be there for a few hours, but I have to be at at least 80% to function properly...but 100% would be best. I was gonna host a shindig, but some people kinda pissed me off so Fcuk that. I got invited to a gathering with some friends I used to kick it with. I'd like to go, but I dont want to fall back into old habits. As it is now I go out too much. But its just because I get tired of sitting at the house alone. [Damn there goes that word again. Ugh, I hate it: alone.] Anyway, I know I will have fun. And I'd be bringing in the new year, so its okay right? Eh...A big part of me believes that If I actually do something different this year, my year will yield different results. The last 4-5 years have been full of drunken stupidity and hangovers. The only times in life I have ever truly had hangovers have always been on January 1. What I would like to do is spend sometime with someone of some importance in my life. A guy. Someone i can lay next to and watch tv or a movie. Watch the ball drop, toast to the new year, kiss, and sleep. Nothin major or out of the ordinary.
Its just that no one like him exists.
Blah.
I was tempted to end the blog there, but I'd rather end on a happy note.
I'm really excited that as my eating habits change I can keep eating another of my favorite foods: Rainbow Sherbert. Yummy. I just finished my mac and cheese...Now Im gonna have a bowl of Rainbow sherbert. :0)Im so excited!
TTyL
Peace Love and Blessings Ya'll.
So in order for this blog to work I have to talk about stuff. I dont really want to talk about my non-exsistant love life, but there is lots of stuff to go on about. I could talk about my experience with college and the 'path' i've chosen. I could talk about family issues...rather, issues i have with my family. Is that too private? I dont know. I just came to clear my mind...and right now this is what's on it.
Desmond.
I know I shouldn't be thinking of him. I keep beating myself up about how much I like him because I really really just want to be a friend to him. I mean I care about this dude and his well being, but I have genuine feelings for him too. I find myself getting jealous when he talks about other females, but I have to check myself really quick because thats not fair. We are just friends. Have I talked to him about this...Well, yea -kinda. I feel like he already knows, so why say anything ya know? I dont want our relationship to change. I like it just the way it is. I dont want things to be any more awkward than they can be at times and I definitely dont want him to go running the other direction. It gets easier everytime we hang out. Its definitely gonna suck when he goes back to Atlanta. No worries though. I guess.
Aside from him, another problem is boggling my brain: New years Eve.
I want to party like there's no tomorrow. But I have to be at work at 1045 Friday morning. I'll only be there for a few hours, but I have to be at at least 80% to function properly...but 100% would be best. I was gonna host a shindig, but some people kinda pissed me off so Fcuk that. I got invited to a gathering with some friends I used to kick it with. I'd like to go, but I dont want to fall back into old habits. As it is now I go out too much. But its just because I get tired of sitting at the house alone. [Damn there goes that word again. Ugh, I hate it: alone.] Anyway, I know I will have fun. And I'd be bringing in the new year, so its okay right? Eh...A big part of me believes that If I actually do something different this year, my year will yield different results. The last 4-5 years have been full of drunken stupidity and hangovers. The only times in life I have ever truly had hangovers have always been on January 1. What I would like to do is spend sometime with someone of some importance in my life. A guy. Someone i can lay next to and watch tv or a movie. Watch the ball drop, toast to the new year, kiss, and sleep. Nothin major or out of the ordinary.
Its just that no one like him exists.
Blah.
I was tempted to end the blog there, but I'd rather end on a happy note.
I'm really excited that as my eating habits change I can keep eating another of my favorite foods: Rainbow Sherbert. Yummy. I just finished my mac and cheese...Now Im gonna have a bowl of Rainbow sherbert. :0)Im so excited!
TTyL
Peace Love and Blessings Ya'll.
My First Blog
So, I have tried this time after time. On Xanga...Myspace...Facebook...
I just need a place to write. To clear my mind. Writing has always helped...but I needed a place away from the ubersocial scene. I mean, Sure this is a vast social site...ugh, IDK.
What I do know is 2010 will be here in a few days and everyone always talks about new years resolutions. I said I wasn't gonna have any cause I dont want to say things I dont mean or make promises I cant keep...when its all said and done though. I do want to make one resolution.
I promise, resolve, whatever you wanna call it, to try.
No matter the circumstance. I vow to try. Whole-hearted attempts. I wont just give up before I give it a good run. This blog is inclusive. Im going to TRY to write at least once a week. Im going to try to keep up with my devotionals. Im going to try to make time for God Daily. then im gonna try to make time for me daily. I have to take care of myself, ya know.
I already feel better. Tonight was a rough night.
I can already tell im gonna have late night sessions here blogging...but that makes me happy.
I miss writing.
Well, here goes nothing. My first Blog.
Stick with me, kay?
Im planting a seed here [[.]]
And im praying with all my might that Ill be able to make it GR0W.
Keep your fingers crossed...its gonna be a long year!
Peace Love and Blessings Ya'll
I just need a place to write. To clear my mind. Writing has always helped...but I needed a place away from the ubersocial scene. I mean, Sure this is a vast social site...ugh, IDK.
What I do know is 2010 will be here in a few days and everyone always talks about new years resolutions. I said I wasn't gonna have any cause I dont want to say things I dont mean or make promises I cant keep...when its all said and done though. I do want to make one resolution.
I promise, resolve, whatever you wanna call it, to try.
No matter the circumstance. I vow to try. Whole-hearted attempts. I wont just give up before I give it a good run. This blog is inclusive. Im going to TRY to write at least once a week. Im going to try to keep up with my devotionals. Im going to try to make time for God Daily. then im gonna try to make time for me daily. I have to take care of myself, ya know.
I already feel better. Tonight was a rough night.
I can already tell im gonna have late night sessions here blogging...but that makes me happy.
I miss writing.
Well, here goes nothing. My first Blog.
Stick with me, kay?
Im planting a seed here [[.]]
And im praying with all my might that Ill be able to make it GR0W.
Keep your fingers crossed...its gonna be a long year!
Peace Love and Blessings Ya'll
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