Friday, February 19, 2010

Figuring out What I like

Guys always ask me what I want in a guy and i always say "the usual" and then they ask what I look for that would set a guy apart from "the usual" and im determining this now...

1. A great smile and sense of Humor.
2. Intellect.
3. I like em aggressive...but not pushy.
4. The way my hand fits and feels in his. [this is a major one]
5. Ability to wear the pants. [if i can tget everything i want from you...you aint the dude for me!]

Monday, February 15, 2010

Monday, February 8, 2010

Guide me in the way I should go.

Why can everyone see my potential but me.

I love my music. I love what I can do.
I'd love to perfect my craft.
I just dont have the funds to do it.

I'd like to try acting. I think i could be good at it.

I'd like to think everything happens for a reason.
But damnit I wanna know the reason.

Im in the dark.
Someone PLEASE bring me into the light.

I dont want to be depressed again...its hard to get out of.
I know it it a state of mind, but right now, im weak enough to let myself fall.
I'm tired of fighting.

Im going to sleep.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Someone please explain this to me

When there is one dude...there are 5.
When Im lonely and want to call someone, there is no one.

How the hell does that happen to me?

I want to be able to lay in your arms all night.
I dont want to be pressured about sex.
But I want you to recognize when I want it.
And I want you to play my game to get it... :)
I want to be able to see us together for a while.
I want to see us laughin at the same jokes.
I want us to laugh at each other.
I want you to make full use of my down time
because you realize I dont have much of it.
I want you to want me and let me know it without saying a word.

Yes, this may be alot to ask for...
But I have had it before, so I know its possible to have.
I dont want to be taken advantage of anymore.
I know that I am an awesome girlfriend.
I know that I have walls around my heart.
But I want you to know that I have been waiting years to tear them down.

4 years to be exact.

I'm tired of being single.
I miss the spoils of a relationship.
The hard times too.
I want someone to fight for...
who will also fight for me.

I want to Love again.

And I want to be loved.